I was feeling guilty but at the same time I was feeling great
I was having the best moments of my life, I was enjoying every minute with him. The way he was touching me, all over my body…the way his tongue was licking my clitoris and how his teeth were biting my lips …it was just incredible hot!
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His breath, his masculine perfume and his big hands were enough to make me feel like in seventh Heaven! His voice was hypnotizing me, his smile was the most beautiful one that I have ever seen in my life and I was happy and satisfied to be in his company… we were not in a proper relationship. Do you wanna know why? Because the man that I am talking about is the father of the girl that I take care of, I am a babysitter. Yes, judge me! I assume what I was doing and what I still do… even though it may seem wrong, I know he has feelings for me but it is complicated. He is a widower for 5 years already , his daughter has only 10 years old and it is more simple for him and me to just keep the secret, especially because I have only 20 years old and he is 33. I know it is a big difference between us, but he was the first man for me, I was a virgin and he was my choice and I don’t regret it.
All started a year ago, I was 19 and I was preparing to become a student. In the summer break I wanted to have a job, to earn some money to fulfill some of my desires such as clothing stuff, cosmetics and accessorizes. I am a very coquette girl, I like to be in trend and to wear the most sensual perfumes ever. My parents love me very much and they support me financially and everything, but I wanted to do something because I was old enough, regarding that they were going to help me in college. So I looked over the internet and I found a job in a small village next to my town. The job was simple: I had to stay with a 10 years old girl and watch for her while her dad was at work, because her mother died when she was a kid and her grandparents were very far from them, so she needed to be with someone. I was happy to accept the job, I called Mr. Jacob immediately and he told me to come the next day at ten o’clock in the morning. He was working at a company and usually he was gone from 8 o’clock until 21 o’clock at night, but that day he was going later to work. As I said, I am a very chic girl and I chose a nice outfit, casual but still hot and decent. I have a long , brown chocolate hair and I let it free on my back and I put some snickers on and I left to my new job. I was having a driving license so it was very comfortable for me to go there. There were only 11 km to drive and I arrived in front of a big house, very beautiful and modern, with a lake near it and a splendid view. I didn’t expect that and it caught me off guard, I was very surprised. I entered in the huge yard and I went to knock at the door and I was welcomed by Mr. Jacob, Melissa’s father, the child that I had to take care of. He was a tall man, well build, with blonde hair and dark , green eyes, he was looking like some kind of an actor, very handsome , young and with a naughty smile on his face. From the first second I knew that I felt attracted to him. He was like a magnet. But not only that he was sexy and beautiful, but he was also charming, polite and rich. I mean… for a young girl or even for a woman, these qualities mean a lot.
My time there was like a relaxation and the money that I was receiving for staying five days a week was more than enough. Jacob, because we got to know each other and he told me to call him on his first name, was treating me so good, and day by day we were becoming more and more close to each other. At first I didn’t realize what was going on, but in time I figured that something is between us, and I must say that for my age I am pretty mature and smart , I am beautiful and charismatic, and he wasn’t the first guy that wanted me. I caught him checking on me for many times, in the evenings when he was returning from his work he was offering to drive me home. He was asking me every time if I need something. We were discussing for hours after Melissa was falling asleep and I was getting home so late. My parents sensed that something was going on, they knew that he was a single man and a young one. Let me tell you about our first night when we had love… as I said I was a virgin… we shared a few kisses and touchings before that night, I was becoming more and more secure with him, and the guilt feeling was fading away … we talked about us a lot and he made it clear for me that he doesn’t want just an adventure and everything was going to be as I want to. He was a very good man, kind and sincere. He found out that I was a virgin and he treated me with respect, he told me that he needs to make the relationship official, to talk with my parents. I didn’t let him. It was the first time when I was feeling those things for someone, he was also surprised that he fell for a younger person and I decided to keep the silence for a while. The first time when we had sex was an extraordinary experience, I was afraid but also I was trusting him. Melissa was at her grandparents, it was an August evening, with a warm summer air and a romantic vibe. We stayed at his house, alone, he cooked dinner , we watched a movie and after that he propose me something: I was blindfolded and he guided me into the garden and we arrived near the lake, and he let me see: he prepared a blanket under the moonlight, two glasses of champagne and strawberry ice cream, my favorite. It was like a dream, he was dressed in some cream tight pants, I could only look at his penis, it was very visible through them. We laughed and he began to caress my hands and hair and he put a rose behind my ear. I felt like a princess near to my prince. At some moments I had doubts that he was just wanted to trick me, but fortunately I followed my heart and we are together still, and he was true. But let’s continue… we started to kiss. I got on top of him, he was keeping me into his big arms, we were kissing each other with passion, and I was feeling butterflies and goosebumps in my entire body. I told him to go slow and so he did… he lied me down on the blanket, he kissed my neck and , while watching me into my eyes, he grabbed my hands with one of his hands, he was holding them tight, and with the other he unbuttoned my shirt, button with button, until my big breasts were into his mouth. Then, slowly, he kissed my abdomen and opened up my pants, he undressed me and then he kissed my pussy through my panties. At first I was a little bit shy but then I was pushing his head there, I was all wet. The next thing I know is him on top of me, and he penetrated me suddenly, I felt an instant pain but then, step by step, the pain transformed in pleasure, and the pleasure became an orgasm and everything was love.
I feel loved, yes. It is strange, but it is the truth. It was wrong , but it felt good!
