We continued to meet and make love with the same ardor but something had changed
I was starting to change … someone had interfered between us and that someone was my husband.
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After the episode in which he had known Andrei in our house, he had turned out to be only milk and honey. He often visited me, did not pressure me and talked to me about reconciliation. At first I refused him, but he continued to insist gently and apologize for everything he had done to me in the past and especially because he had left me. Andrei also felt that something was wrong with me, but I thought it was like everything before, but my soul was terrible … I was caught between two men and I did not know whom to choose. Daniel was still my husband, a mature man with whom I shared good and bad for 14 years, he knew me best and I still loved him … He was ready to give up the other woman to be with me again, he wanted to be a happy family again. Andrei was like a lightning in my life and filled it with beauty and love, I was in love with him and crazy about how I was making love with him, he was young, and he had the sensitivity I always wanted in a man. I was feeling alive in his company. I was torn between the two and it seemed to me that that decision was the most important thing in my life … I was no longer sleeping at night, and I was getting more and more stressed … I was not touching food anymore, and I thought it would be better for me to swallow the ground than to make a choice … I would have liked to be with both of them but I knew it was not possible. Then one morning after another sleepless night, I decided. I called Andrei and with a trembling voice I asked him to come up to me. In my mind, I had repeated what I was going to say, but my thoughts were chaotic in my head, and I was afraid I would crash in front of him. When I heard the bell I smoothed my dress and fired my chest. When I opened the door I stared at him. In jeans and a blue shirt matching his eyes was a painting that was hard to forget. My heart gathered when he embraced me and I felt his scent.
– Come on, let’s sit down.
– You’re so pale, tell me what’s wrong with you, why are you avoiding me lately?
-Andrei, you’re young.
-You are the same, because you’re not old.
-The idea is that I’m too old for you and I do not want to ruin your future.
I saw how he gradually changed under my eyes, how he sharpened, and his eyes got shimmering steel.
– You better say what you have to say without word games for stupid people.
-Want me to be direct?
-Exactly !
-I got back with Daniel and I want us to break up.
At that moment I felt the most abominable woman on earth. He started as if a stone had hit him straight ahead. His eyes had darkened and his beautiful features became a granite sculpture.
-I’m the big loser in this whole story … you used me!
– Andrei, there was no dirty game, it all happened without a premeditation on my part, I did not intend to hurt you … I fell in love with you, but for the name of God I am not the most suitable for you, you have a better way in life I’m not part of. I wanted to be honest with you, we could just as well to still meet each other as if nothing had happened, but I love Daniel and I want to save what can be saved from this marriage.
He raised me up from the sofa and began to pepper me desperately.
-But he does not love you, he never loved you Olivia, he always considered you his property, his beautiful toy he knew it was there, somewhere, and where he came back whenever he wanted. Now it will be the same, he has panicked because he felt like you get rid of the leash but when things will return to normal and I will be long gone from the landscape, he will make you suffer again.
-No ! Daniel has changed and you’re wrong, he loves me, he always loved me.
– Even when he was with the other woman?
-Even when..
He looked at me with pain … He stuck his lips on my mouth, and I felt how I lost all my will in his arms.
-Don’t give up on me Oli, stay with me, step beside me into a new life, do not go back to your painful past … I love you woman!
– Andrei, do not make me change my mind, my decision is already taken … I screamed.
-I want to save you, let me save you from unhappiness, from tears, from a life lived in solitude … a solitude in two.
– She does not need to be saved … and especially by you.
The harsh voice belonged to Daniel who had just appeared being dressed very light , with a glass in his hand. We looked at him and we both had damp eyes.
-True love does not appear twice in the way of our life, and when it comes we must grasp it with both hands and not let go of it.
He looked at me for a few moments before he came out forever from my life. Our life began to get slowly on the brink of normality. We were once again the united couple that our friends and families knew, Daniel was more tender, loving than he had been in the past, and I should have felt the most happy woman on the earth, I had just gotten what I wanted: Daniel beside me, loving me. And yet, every day I was awakening more and more sad and empty-minded. I was aware that I was missing something … then one morning when Daniel caught me in his arms and kissed me, I realized with horror that I miss Andrei, as I always loved him and that in every gesture and look of Daniel I was looking for Andrei. After some time I went to shop, when I met Tamara, my husband’s ex-girlfriend, from whom I found out she had left Daniel. I ran out of the shop , with rage, and headed for the house though I had to go to the aerobics gym, but I was too disturbed for any other activity. I had to put my thoughts in order and calm down. What Tamara told me threw my relatively quiet world upside down. When I got home, I heard my husband talk to a woman on the phone, telling her he had to stay with me for a while, that he can not escape now. My heart stayed in place and for a few moments I could not breathe. I walked out of the house and hid in the alley where I stayed for a few minutes, then headed for the house and walked in as if I had just arrived. Daniel rushed to me to hug me and he kissed me on the mouth. I avoided him and I took a seat in my chair. I told him all I had heard and asked for his divorce right away. The next second I called Andrei who forgave me and waited me in his apartment where we spent an unforgettable night, the first of all that followed.
