I got up .
The moment I touched the door, I stared at him.
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I recognized a vague shadow of the boy I had loved (and I was still loving him) with all my heart. A tear dropped from my eyes, tears in which I gathered all the beautiful memories … the beautiful words … first I love you … the first hand n hand … his smile, my smile when I was with him, when we were together . How can everything be a lie in a second? How can you be so cruel to kill a love? It’s been a day. Two. Three. I was expecting a sign from him, something, but nothing … Probably he did not care, he had reached his goal, I had been his, he won the bet, now he was happy. One morning when I was preparing to go to the gym, I heard the door bell. Believing it was my friend with whom I was usually going, I opened the door… I was amazed, shocked for a few seconds, in front of me it was Nick. I did not know if I was happy to see him, or I wanted to kill him.
– What are you doing here ? was the only thing I could ask, even though I had 10000 questions to ask but who dared?
– Anna, what is wrong with you? What do you mean what I’m looking for here? You’ve disappeared like that, of course, I was worried …
I looked at him. The same inexpressive face, he was saying words like a robot … it was obvious that he had not worried about me, he thought maybe it would be polite though, maybe his consciousness didn’t let him go on, but those were not feelings. And the worst was that I had been blind for three months, I thought he loved me, that there was something between us …
– Nick, go away ! Nonsense, I wanted him to stay, to take me in his arms, tell me it was just a bad dream, that he loves me …
– Anna, how can you let go after everything we did together?
And then I knew. I hurt his pride, not him at all. Nick had no feelings, he only had a great big pride! He looked at me annoyed. I was trying to look indifferent and I think I did great, after his face .
– So for you it did not mean anything …!
– Nothing ! was the coldest and painstaking answer I have ever gave. He meant everything for me … And he left .
I was trying to forget him , though it was very difficult. I was seeing him every day (with Andreea – the one who was sending him messages) how they were coming together at classes … How they were leaving. And I decided to make him suffer, just as I did for him. No, I did not love him anymore … He took care to turn everything into something ugly. There were several weeks until the summer vacation. He was going to graduate. At least I wasn’t going to see him in high school every day … But I had to do something. I was always getting what I want, no matter how long it would take. Radu. His best friend. An easy target, and he was not looking bad … It wasn’t hard to conquer him … It was almost too simple … An evening in the same club where everything started between me and Nick, a smile, a kiss and he already told me he loves me.
– Nick was stupid to leave you so easy …
– It is in the past . It was just a game … I did not care.
– There were moments when he seemed in love. And he laughed. He, in love … I will never see this.
– What about Andreea?
– Maybe she …
– Will we talk about him all night?
And we kissed. When I opened my eyes, Nick was in front of me, a few feet away, staring at us. Andreea was holding his arm as if he was her property. We went on, that time more passionate … Radu was more passionate. Sweeter . More possessive. Although he was part of the bet, I was not upset. The fault belonged only to Nick and so. I felt he was holding me with one arm and I felt his breath a little accelerating, I liked it. All night Nick looked at us, but I could not get anything out of his figure. It could have meant so many things … Then I left with Radu. On the way, I had remorse … I was thinking about Nick, I imagined him next to me, I was not sure it was good what I was doing with his best friend, that was not me. But was I ever myself after what he had done to me?
-You love only me, are not you?
He was whispering hot… I felt delicious thrills on my spine when his handsome and soft hands stopped on my body, trying to remove the last obstacles among us. The clothes fell one by one … I stopped. I smiled and I continued, I already saw him no longer patient. I felt his fingers gently lowering on my neck. He had quickly discovered that it was an extremely sensitive area for me. It was enough to feel his fingers or lips barely touching me and it was making me happy. I moaned slightly under the touch of those fingers that excited me. And again his lips kissed me until I felt like I was breathless. His hands were shaking my body, and I was getting more excited. I felt his hand crawling through my shorts and as a hand invader continued to move forward towards my pussy. Annoyed that the place was tight, I saw him pull the trousers with, then he pushed me to the couch and like a barbarian went to my pussy. I felt his mouth touching me with an unsuspected desire, his lips and his tongue seemed to blow every corner of my pussy, going from labia to clitoris, from the clitoris to the vagina.
The next day I was thinking about the madness I had done with Radu. I did not regret anything, but I did not recognize myself … As images passed through my mind I received a message. It almost stopped my heart: Nick. “I have to see you right away! I get to you in 10 minutes. Another thing I worshiped and hated about him at the same time – he was always making decisions on his own, he was too sure about him, too cocky. I did not even have time to answer that he had already reached the door. I thought I would not open, but as I anticipated the reaction, he screamed out that he would wait no matter how much to see me. My heart was racing .
– What do you want ?
– What’s between you and Radu?
I started to laugh .
– Since when do you care what I do? As far as I know, you have a girlfriend … Andreea knows you’re here?
– Let’s leave this now. What about Radu?
– Is it something wrong ?
I saw him getting angry. He looked me straight in the eyes and he asked me if I love him.
– Do not use big words, but I think it’s a beginning. I loved to make him feel no longer superior. He stared at me for several minutes. He was so cute when he did not know how to react …
– Look, if that’s a bet …
– It’s not a bet!
– Ha! So you admit it , I was a bet!
– Yes !
I did not expect it to sound so tough, I wanted him to fight back, to apologize … not to crush what was left of my heart!
– Leave ! I closed my eyes just in time to stop a tear coming out.
He took me in his arms, grabbed my face with his hands and washed my tears:
– You’re the only one I want!
And I gave up. I melted in his arms, under his kisses and touches. My body was dying for his caresses, I was longing for him. I was dying of the desire to make love with him, to feel him in me, to be his. I gave his shirt down, then I stripped off his jeans and I pushed me to me, showing him what I wanted. A few seconds later we were both at the top of the bed. His lips were making me crazy, his tongue was moving around my nipples, he excited me more and more. Then I took control. I tied his hands and started kissing him …
